christmas dinner at our place ^^

whole smoked chicken that i ordered from the net, bacon and mushroom pasta that papsie made, demi-sec rose sparkling wine, beaujolais nouveau 08 wine and chocolate xmas cake that kaye bought on the way home.

yummy yum.. *^-^*

Merry Christmas! hahah..

.~.~.~.~.~.

hmmmm... haay.

but i wasnt and couldnt be that happy... - . -

i was told by papsie that he only has more or less 5yrs to live...nonchalantly (a few times). i tried to let it just slip away as a joke, since he already had told me that once before, again, casually. but this time i couldnt... haay. im scared. i should be strong by that time.. i should be ready. but i dont know how to.. : . ;

not to mention my mother has only a maximum of 2-3 yrs to live left.

= id be an "orphan" in 5 yrs.

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