stress!
i need to vent it all out!

i haven't told everyone what i've been up to this week so i'll just say it here.

first, i was looking for a job somewhere in the neighborhood (again) coz i (my body) just can't keep up working at usj. the lower abdominal pain, the pelvis ache, headache, and being cranky before and after work.
i thought i need to find a new job. so i looked for a new one and saw that uniqlo is hiring. i called and got a schedule for an interview. i've been researching about uniqlo on the net for the interview, when i found out lots of bad rumors that their training is major spartan, and most seniors/managers are power harassing and unreasonable. so i searched again for jobs but couldn't find any that i like.

after a while, there was an offer from someone i know in the philippines for me to be their research associate and translator. i would conduct interviews online to japanese and transate the documents needed. it was good news so i said yes. it's been a long time since i used my brains that much! lol.

come the day of my interview in uniqlo, i still went.. and i think i did well. now i'm afraid all the more. what if i got accepted? i want to try. i'm sure i could learn a lot of things.. uniqlo is famous for their excellent customer service, and it will be good impression for other companies if i say i worked at uniqlo when the time comes that i'd need to search for a new job again, but will my body keep up?

then starting this day, i just couldn't sleep at night! literally!
i had to go to work today without sleep. plus i suddenly had a hard time breathing at work.. the feeling was like a light asthma and a light heart attack rolled into one. ugh.

i was thinking why, when i remembered that i've been so pissed with hubby too the past days. how selfish and conceited could a person get?

yet i actually didn't realized it was stress until i read an email about stress from a friend (talk about nice timing).

now i know.
sigh.

what i can't believe, is that i let it get to me.
i wish i was stronger.. i wish i could do anything i want without being affected by anything.