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yours truly

rikangel

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Addicted to Online Shopping.
Blessed with a sweet and kind husband
Head over heels with my adorable daughter
Used to think im older than my age,
Now i want to be younger.
Loves sweets, sweets, sweets!
Likes the color pink.
Made it through the rain ^-~
Making dreams come true one step at a time

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pregnancy

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

i was happy last week...
when i finally learned that we are expecting.
yes, im pregnant.. for about 5 weeks now i guess..
(the first plan is to post it here after i visit my gyne again at the end of this month to be sure of the good news, but i need to vent so this is my pregnancy news post. sorry)

but now...
sigh.
i can't help but think that maybe we rushed things.
i badly wanted a baby, but i guess i wasn't thinking carefully back then.
it never came to my mind that pregnancy would be this tiring that i need to stop from working..
we are not financially prepared for that since recession isn't over yet.

and..
it seems that papsie isn't that happy either.
to think that a high percentage of my reason for wanting to be pregnant is him coz i want him to see his grandchild soon..
maybe he's thinking that why did we made such a hasty decision, when the world is in the middle of a crisis. which is true..

this is not what i expected.
its really depressing.. T.T

consecutive dreams

Wednesday, April 08, 2009

ive been dreaming about...
guess who?
my mother.

all dreams have different plots/stories but one cast was always there..
yes. its her.

the weird thing is, its not the unreasonable and selfish mother that i know, but the loving and caring mother that i wanted... and i have been having this dreams when i decided that want to be a mother too.
i wonder what could it mean...
it makes me sad when i wake up.

and today, it was not my mom but my father..
rather than a dream, it was a nightmare.

there we're men in my father's house and it was trying to kill him, so i went and killed the man instead. the others went away after.
then i went to meet friends like nothing happened..
the next day (in my dream) my father told me that they are coming back and is after me. he told me to go and ran away, and that he was going to handle it himself since he'd be soon gone anyways.
i was crying and hugged him goodbye.
i ran away, did not know where to go.
then i woke up.

soo depressing... :(
i want to cry now...

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